New Chapter

Hey Chums.

In case you all have been wondering where have I been all this while,
I shall say that I have been really busy with work.
It has been a really great time working at "Eternal Minds".
My Hiatus will have to continue for another 3 months >.<
Where I will be engaged in a 3 months of meaningless project work.

YES, FOR THE SCH. (Note, not for me...)

For those who are thinking that life is meaningless and stuff...
Look at me... I have a porfolio which has big names like , , ...
Yet I still have to do some silly low cuts for NYP... haha!!!

But on the bright side... I will be able to have more time for God and for THE other things.
Which is very good as I have recently taken up R/C flying.

-.+ (This emote means Wink, Type 3)

Ahhh, Rest eh? Time to add a new Lecture to my Blog where I will Touch on

"I have now reigned about 50 years in victory or peace, beloved by my subjects, dreaded by my enemies and respected by my allies. Riches and honours, power and pleasure, have waited on my call, nor does any earthly blessing appear to have been wanting to my felicity. In this situation, I have diligently numbered the days of pure and genuine happiness which have fallen to my lot. They amount to 14."
- Abd Er-Rahman III of Spain

OK, let's pretend. We have succeeded in the stockmarket. We are rich. We have gone beyond money and its status. What could now elude us in the pursuit of happiness?

Here are a few things on the shopping list that money cannot deliver:

Love. Imagine you are standing at the side of the road and a bus is coming. In the middle of the road, oblivious to impending death, is a person. You have the option. Watch them get run over, or push them out of the way and get run over yourself? You or them - no other options. Is there anyone in the world you would step off the kerb for? That's love. Worth more than your life, let alone money.

Family. When the Lord visits you on your deathbed and asks you what you've done in your life that's worthwhile, what will you say? Climbing Everest? Making your first million?

Something to do. For those of us with qualifications, education, effort and ambition, there is choice, and as long as there is, there's no excuse for a day, let alone a lifetime, at the grindstone. The most successful people are successful because they love their work. Why waste time doing anything else?

Passion. Spoke to a rich man once who complained about his temporary inability to generate passion. In his case he had passionately built businesses and made money. But he had done it now and it had waned. You need something to be passionate about and that means more than pretending you are passionate for the sake of it. At least that's what he said.

Dreams. As my Boss Daniel Sim who is also an avid R/C pilot said to me recently, most people who bother to pursue their dreams achieve them. The crime is that they do not dream hard enough. (Eh, Rephased by me of course, He was using words like Destiny and Fate... too theological for my blog)

Respect of our peers. Fitting in with everyone else provides foundation. It is even more comfortable if they think you are OK.
That only comes if you are, and that only comes because of your effort.
In the words of the football legend Ron Barassi, a master among men: "I don't respect talent, good looks, brains. I don't respect the things you were born with. I respect effort. Getting up in the morning and moving those arms and legs."

Rich or poor, we can have it all. But probably better rich.

Back to the grindstone then.

Passion. Spoke to a rich man once who complained about his temporary inability to generate passion. In his case he had passionately built businesses and made money. But he had done it now and it had waned. You need something to be passionate about and that means more than pretending you are passionate for the sake of it. At least that's what he said.

Dreams. As my brother-in-law said to me recently, most people who bother to pursue their dreams achieve them. The crime is that they do not dream hard enough.

Respect of our peers. Fitting in with everyone else provides foundation. It is even more comfortable if they think you are OK. That only comes if you are, and that only comes because of your effort. In the words of the football legend Ron Barassi, a master among men: "I don't respect talent, good looks, brains. I don't respect the things you were born with. I respect effort. Getting up in the morning and moving those arms and legs."

Rich or poor, we can have it all. But probably better rich.

Back to the grindstone then.

Marcus Padley is a stockbroker and the author of the daily stockmarket newsletter Marcus Today. For a free trial of the Marcus Today newsletter please go to www.marcustoday.com.au

EndOfSch...

Sch Is Out...

This is one of those milestones that we will all have to pass someday.
My came and yes no more classes as I have totaled them all.

But that Does not mean no more lessons.
For I must say that not all lessons are taught in the comforts of the classroom.

I feel funny like as like you know...
"Just like that? No more? I dun believe it but it is true..."

Man as I look back at the times I had before... I am lost for words.
Words are too vulgar to express a mix of emotions such as mine.

A little of Relief
A little of Pain
A little of Thanksgiving
A little of Sadness
A little of Unwillingness
A little of This and
A little of That.

And to those of you who were there for me when I needed a few mental cushions.
I want to take the oppotunity to say;

Thank You.
I would not be able to make it through if not for you.

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Why is God the Coolest being in the Universe... to a gamer

1) He speaks very little.

2) He has the ability to make you listen when he does speak. (He does not use chat boxes)

3) He is Lord over all. (He pwns all games including the one with us in it...)

4) He has Uber Micro. (His mouse cursor is everywhere)

5) He does not need to Hack to use God-Mode.

6) His avatar is li3k all shinny and you get turn into dust if you turn on "view webcam" to see who was pwning you...

SecondWeekOfHols

Dancing to the Music

I went to check out some music gizmo today wif uncle Rong Fa...
I found what I want... a good set of head phones...

Beyerdynamics DT series.

It was real good when I tested it out there in their room.
He was skeptical about my choice of headphones since it only cost $450.
OK... his was $2k so he has the right to be skeptical.
But he was converted after he tried it on a Icool amplifier...

Basically he though it was the $2600 amp that was doing all the work.
So the sales person switched over to the Icool $180 amplifier.
It owned too!!!

I must add that he had a really good CD deck and amp up there...
I looked at the stuff and it was hitting the $6k mark.
-.= damn where am I going to get the cash?

So I will start with the headphones.
I am still lost at which type I should get.
A closed type or a opened one?
Sure, I want both but I will have to save up for even one. -.-
I can't wait to start working and earning some cash.

Here is the cool stuff.
Though not the exact model I was looking at.

And here is the Amp... $2.6k really good.
Totally blows!!!

Ok, enough of the wants in my life... It is not good kids.
Be Self fulfilled... be contented..?

Let the lecture begin ~

Simple is beautiful.
The masters of any given field always go back to the basics, the fundamentals, the bare essentials of their craft.

The fancy stuff is nice, but the real cool shit is minimalist.

Drum and bass.
Color and light.
Meter and rhyme.

And the works that grab us are usually built on the simplest of concepts-- a love song, the hero myth, the afterworld.

Of course, this is not recommended for all professions, like say, medicine.
If I ever go under the knife, I don't want some quack trying to go "minimalist" on me.
I'll be in pain cuz he won't give me any drugs, and he'll be like, "Hey, I'm retro."

Or pilots.
Those guys definitely shouldn't be getting too avant garde.
"Attention. This is your pilot speaking. I thought I'd break down my craft to its bare essentials. Hold on, everybody."

But yeah. In regards to my headphones and my amp.
It is a simple piece of equipment.
It comes in two pieces, the amp and the headphone.
You pluck all the cables in and then wear the headphones to hear beautiful music.

Yes it is that simple.
Bare minimum.
No avant garde.
Only the price tag.

Damn, I still can't get away with this.

Check out these Seba Skate Frames... Blings Dude Blings!!!

Mmmmh, Rest.

Rest and Relax at last.

Okay life in the holidays is kinda good...
Its like I can sleep when I want and oversleep everyday.
Sloth is my good friend.

It is so great to slack... of course ****n from my church will go "What! You are going to slack? (looks at other church members in astonishment) He said he is going to slack!!!".

Alas, he is such a funny person, classified under (Highly Naive and Superficial) in my book of records. BTW, I really do have one... this is one of those books when I study people reactions and record down my observations... it is running page hundred very soon.

I did not know that I will go thus far.

I usually carry out my test in a try and see basis.
I will usually say something that is against their thinking or ideology and I just pick up from there. But it is very important to observe your subject beforehand first as if he or she is in one of her "funny" modes... you are not going to get very accurate and useful results.

I have much friends who are Free-thinkers, Christians and even atheist.


This is my results so far:


Free-thinkers tested: 12 meh... Observations:

These are the fun and very human kind of people that have all sorts of weird ideas and some of them do pretty radical things... but they are the people who are more willing to listen and to try to understand in their own ways and capacity.

A freethinker is one who thinks freely -- one who is prepared to consider any possibility, and who determines which ideas are right or wrong by bringing reason to bear, according to a consistent set of rules such as the scientific method.

I find them more open and more willing to share, since they do not have a solid codex in their life like Christians do, they are not so regimental in their ways of attack and understanding. They can accept new ideas and relate to others in a not so aggressive manner.

They are more practical and less mystical.
You can actually carry out an argument and both sides can benefit from it...



Christians tested: 28...
I am so surrounded by them

Observations:

Applicable for only 85.71% of my bunch of unwilling candidates... the others are well... more human, not so extreme.

These bunch of Christians are to me quite like a close book. You cannot say that they may be wrong, they will attack you back with all their countermeasures taken from their codex which is the bible...

To me, they are very naive, bunch of very limited understanding doods due to their own selective learning methods, but we are all like that... only to what extent.

This bunch are quite the extreme though...

They tend to attack first and understand later...
They open their mouths to rebuke the speaker even before they pass the information thru their heads... if it even gets to their heads.

Closed books... no one can gain much from them.
A conversation about religion will just piss both sides off... someone just shoot them already.



Atheist tested: 5...
not enough to get a good gauge

Observations:

Like most Christians, they are a freaking closed book... only worse.
I should say a book under lock and key. Get your dynamite to break though.

To get to these bunch of people is kinda hard, for they have built high fortifications around them.
They live to deny any ideas of religion in regards to God or gods.

They claim to have all the answers and are not ignorant but yeah, to me they are a bunch of naive and unrealistic doods.

No matter what you say to them, they will try to bypass it and try to undermine your ideas.
For they think that they are always correct, to be atheist is like to be God himself... you set your own right and wrongs you are the benchmark, all else is wrong. They even have doctrines to counter Christians in their rhetorics. But much weak ones that does not account to much.

I will leave you to judge for yourself... their arguments...

http://www.infidels.org/library/modern/mathew/intro.html

It was very funny really... they seem to be the kind that if God himself were to tap on their shoulder, he/she will turn around and say: "NO! You do not exist!".

At this point God may add a calculated surprised look and say: "I did not say I was but yeah, I am... And I think hence I must exist. Right?".

And the Atheist closes his/her eyes and shouts: "No longer!!!"

Bottom line, call yourself a freethinker in order not to be looked down upon... Pls, open your eyes to the facts... and yes I am talking to you both atheist and Christians. I know it is hard but try or at least listen first then talk, you might be surprised and what you may understand from others.

Just do not be like be who took this advice to far and started my own study...
I do not have enough friends who are say... buddatic, Hindunic or Satanritic to get anything concrete... talk to me if you are one of the above.


Its cool, I do it all the time just that sometimes I will make it obvious that I am studying you. Oh, yes I am a Christian Freethinker BTW... for being a freethinker is:

A freethinker is one who thinks freely -- one who is prepared to consider any possibility, and who determines which ideas are right or wrong by bringing reason to bear, according to a consistent set of rules such as the scientific method.

The Eye of the Storm... is Calm.

The storm blew over.
But I seem to be tired of all this wars that rages on.

I still have my IAP plus my final year project to worry about.
It seems that for every storm that passes, a stronger one is brewing at the corner of my sky.

I need to pick myself up and move on.
Though I seem to be calm as a lake,
My smile is always strained;
I guess I need a reprieve.

For that, I am going to skate, skate and skate...
Play my e-guitar again...

Starry, Starry Nite,
Paint your Palette Emo Grey,
Stormy Faces, lines of strains,
Beneath the colors of the cloudy cloudy skies.

Ok... I am not dead... yet.

I want to fly away.

For all of you who were wondering where I went...
Yes I died and went back to Heaven.
And then to Hell to have a debate with the Devil on his idea of assignments.

Yes, these days I am so busy that I feel that I have no way of breathing.
I have forgotten that I need to breathe.

And my body is not listening to my commands...
Even as I am typing this, it wants to lie on its pillow.

My leg did not even wanted to respond when I tried to take a step in class.
Ending in a loud crash and me wondering why I fell.

My mind is a blank, no sounds, no light, no feelings, no meaning.
I find that I have been chasing after the wind for a while now.

This wind started when I ended my previous post.
My sch work.
The Devil.
The Darkness.
The curse.

I feel tired and I want to take a break.
I want one.
I need one.
I am not the one.

Take me from this place, to a place where shadows fade from view,
A place of sanity.
A place of peace.
A place of dreams.

As I take the final plunge into the abyss,
All I want to say is I give up.
Goodbye sanity.
Goodbye health.
Goodbye.

Damn it.

Ok... I am not dead yet.

On death.

Death is a funny thing.

It's like magic.

We're here. Then poof. We're gone.

Imagine what it was like for the first organism to experience death.

The amoeba. He must've been like, "Oh shit! Oh shit! I'm... fading away!

What the hell is this sensation!? Aaauughhh! Oh Amoeba God, make it stop!"

And then, after a fierce protoplasmic death rattle, it's gone. Poof. Magic.

Maybe his amoeba buddies gave him a proper burial, dressed him up in a little black outfit and placed him in a tiny casket.

Actually, no. They all must've been freaked out.

It was the First Death Of Anything Ever. They were probably like, "Dude, what happened to Fred?" as they watched his lifeless single-cell body float off in the primordial ooze, nary a trace of the jubilance and zest for life he once displayed.

Maybe they thought it was cool. Maybe they were like, "Wow. Check out Fred. He's all frozen!

That's so weird! I want to be dead too! I want to be dead like Fred!"

Fred probably started the whole Goth thing.

In his wake, he inspired countless other single-cell organisms to be sullen depressives, moping around, wearing little amoeba boots with huge buckles on them, putting on too much mascara and singing songs from My Chemical Romance.

So it's all Fred's fault.

Fred the Amoeba: Inventor of Goth.

Work Work Work... Rest in Pieces

I have a load of projects to do... I should be sleeping.

1) Visual effects Project(Grp)

• Mole Char modeling and rigging
• Desert Mirage sfx
• Sand Storm Sfx

2) Visual Art Design... Wallpaper Design

3) Motion capture Project.

I hate my life... I am not doing stuff that I should be doing.
I am going skating tmr.

Important Announcement: Due to the Lack of interest, Tomorrow has been canceled.

Teh Existence of Gawd

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Some bloke decided to rant about that there is not Gwad ok... God in our plane of existence.
There is always someone like that around me.

Eww.

That was why this blog was revamped to be more eEo(emo),
wif lots of incoherent pics and lots of song lyrics.

I felt that music was my new language and Goth my new style.

People felt that it was too scientific and full of philosophy; too intellectually soapy.

So I am going to make this as understandable to you guys...
who are not so intellectual like me... (Ego level up +1, Jerk ++3)
I am throwing away all the preachy stuff and add only the facts and laws of this place we call teh Universe. (teh is the new the)


Lets do some maths first, 1 + 1 = 2 (YES DUN SAY 3 or HEADS WILL ROLL!!!)
I will not prove the above math in generic terms cause its stupid.

So you agree that 0 + 0 = 0 ? (you should...)

Now lets say that in the beginning there was nothing,
no electrons,
no protons,
no neutrons,
Then how did this junk of a universe come about? (Sorry Gawd for that, this is eEo bog)

Some guys wif da Phds got this idea of anti-matter;
not bothering wif that as you may not get even that far... you can read up on the internet if you are interested to know of this energy form.
It goes into a long thesis and it is not yet a law(I think... prove me wrong)

So you gotta admit that there has to be something that exist by itself; on its own; by itself; not created by anything...

Then we have this entity... ok call him energy for those pure blooded atheist.

So anyway we have this entity that Christians identify as Gawd and after he made us... you all know the story about the apple.

All man at one point or another have tried to understand the universe both here (earth)and there (the heavens) but what they are doing is in fact; walking towards the source who is God.

I know that it is the fact that many a scientist believe in a origin from Gawd but this is only faced by a different side of the coin that there is no Gawd.

It is quite silly as no one, yes no one is able to prove that Gawd does not exist, Amen. (++ to my little chest of heaven credits... )

Because in the court of law you dun go around prosecuting the defendant with proof that will help the defendant win the case.

All creation points out a freaking point that there is a creator.



(Preachy mode on...)
Will you shut your eyes and hide from the facts?
Is it really ok to choose to go on living your life though
you know that you are heading the wrong way?

Or is it the Ego that is going to hurt? Hey my Ego is far bigger than yours but I know that God is very true and you do not need to convert to Christianity if you say there is God... lol

Ok you cannot escape the preaching part Mr Wong cause you are you... you type wat is on your mind and you hate stupidity. Maybe because I am Stupid in the first place.
Cool, I already hate myself. (Reverting back to trash-talk)


NO! But we are all doing this right? Eh? Self professed atheist?

It is like you go up to God himself and say that you do not believe that he made this earth and that you, Gawd do not exist because earth does not exist.

Hey hey!!! But they do!

So are you implying that it came from a big bang?

lol you know that there has to be TNT for a bang and the TNT may be wat Gawd used to create us, maybe we should start a CULT of The Holy TNT.

And you Know that There has to be a 1 in the equation for that to happen 1 + 0 = 1 ...
Where the heck did the electrons came from?

Drop from the sky? Well thats a good one. I shall write it down as cosmic irony.

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On the other hand I am shocked to find out that Christians are kinda brain washed(most of them mostly).

If you have not thought about how simple is to prove That God Does Exist.

You may be really lost.

For you who find this idea new... you need to redirect your thinking...
That is to start thinking now.

"I have always thought it curious that, while most scientists claim to eschew religion, it actually dominates their thoughts more than it does the clergy"
Fred Holye

His words are so much more cultured than my rant... thats a good sign.

I will be less aggressive in real life if I am more here.

This was why I decided not to brood over such matters... it hurts the brain and the heart whines in pain at the work of my hands.


NOTE: I have done all means to all eEo words and bad spelling to this rant and it remains but a rant, it for you punks... They have no bearing and the pictures are of their respective owners... dun sue mah... Its cool guys I can type like all of yah punks. I am sooo glad I got this off mah chest. To punks, its cool yeh.(additional wooo and yeah and woot and watnot.)

Falling up...

Emotional Strings

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I have been hard on the CDs these days,
I am going for music theory now... grade 6 and it is a pain.

Sch is a big joke... anyway its about to finish. Thank God...

I am thinking of buying a new guitar...
I like white but I think I am going in a new direction of music this time.

So why not a Goth design? Its gonna be black and white.
So I was thinking of this retro theme and I guess I will go with it.
Its gonna be custom on of a kind guitar dude!

Oh and yes to that suicidal guy who is reading this blog...

Remember that somebody loves you and that dun try to hurt yourself doing
crazy stuffs again, K? Just write it in your diary and then move on.

And yes I saw this mp3 widget on Junwei's blog and I got one for mine.
Its cool that I got it to play this Christian Rock song that sounds like Green Day...
or so I think... but dude... Junwei you have some rock on yours too!

So here are the lyrics:

BrokenHearts
FallingUp

In this moment synchronized inside
Words that paint the legacy of life
A different picture will unfold
A healing finds it's way through
Sifted times I take another breathe,
With an ambience of nothing left
So heal my heart, rain down Your Love, these waters bring me back to life

Father, Healer
Deliver me from broken love
Stay here, closer
Let me hear Your voice of Love

There's a Healing calling from the wind
There's a Healer waiting to begin
In timeless places, traced and faceless will I learn to let go
Take me to the heights where Love controls,
Far away from home but feels so close
This empty heart of mine will fall inside and bring me back to life

You can hold
You can mend
You can heal
You can break, I hold cause something etched this way

Savior, Redeemer
Bring me to this place of peace
Jesus, guardian
My broken heart is so in need

E V E R Y T H I N G I N I T S T I M E

Found my answer.

E V E R Y T H I N G I N I T S T I M E

Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round

Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign

'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time

Angel in disguise

Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise.

You could be next to
an angel in disguise.

Everyday can be legendary.

Every minute, an endless surprise.

You could be the next angel in disguise.

These days are hard to pass and I tend to get bad dreams.
I feel that I am just waiting for the year to pass,
Its has been a while since I get this feeling.
I tend to stare out to space.
I need advice, I need God's answer...
I think I really need it now, I feel. I am Tired.

Sometimes.

Sometimes, you make me wonder;
how you've yourself caught under
this spell you so might'ly weaved
and you are, deceived, deceived.

Sometimes, you bring me laughter;
how you've yourself brought under
the thoughts of a child matured
and you have, endured, endured.

Sometimes, you held in your hand
the things you don't understand,
you dream, perfection unseen,
a blunder so eas'ly seen.

Sometimes, you bring me sadness
how you yourself are madness
quantified, personified,
calm, quiet and set aside.

Sometimes, you are not yourself;
how you have built walls that would
lock you out but lock in yourself
and you've yourself misunderstood,
sometimes.


I dun know who wrote this but it is good,
not to abstract yet not to blatant.
And my blog did become Emo. <3

Cool pic.

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Here is a cool pic.
I wonder to myself if those eyes are really that big... ok I am being Silly.

Funny Day.

Guess waat?
I decided to be myself and start voicing out some of my ideas.
Guess I antagonized some people. But Hey, its cool!!!
These are my observations:

1. I finally see that my church band is kinda "conservative"... if not "wat was that word which meant resistant to new ideas".
2. They are Fast to give response without letting the speaker finish and because of that, I decided to tell them half of the point... lol.
3. One of them actually said that we should not compare our band to others as every band has its own strengths and weakness... Sure but by saying that... arnt you comparing? -.=
4. The Strengths and weakness part is true but does that mean that our weakness will always be our weakness? Compare them man... Face it and change it. This is not competition but is called looking at others and learning from them.
5. And they were so much into the worship part of the session previously that I think that they have forgotten that the music can play a part to convey ideas and feelings. And my idea was that we should cap up on our sensitivity towards dynamics. They dun seem to get the point of that. But hey, its emo and it is hard to express, much less to explain.
6. I think that we are not going anywhere man. -.- Just round and round. It still sounds the same as the day I stepped in... I wonder when can we go up another level. Cause I have no idea how myself. I guess we have to be more sensitive towards flow and dynamics for a start. If not everything will sound the same.

I think I am going goth now.
Need a black tie.

Tired

Man, tough life in here after getting sick...
Its hard to catch up wif sch when the fever kicks in.

I'm glad that my skating is getting better and I am well on my way to attend next year's Slalom comp held in Singapore. I think I should finalize my team and start having serious group trainings.

So guys... get your skates and START PLAYING WIF THE CONES!!!

Slalom FTW.

New Begining, Emo me...

Here is a new Beginning from now till forever.
I have decided to change my life, again.

I guess I am the Emo type but well I hate to admit,
my fashion sense is going that in that direction too.
I got this pair of geek Emo glasses, I was kinda drawn to it.
Oh well, looks good anyway.

My slalom skating is moving along fine. Its cool.
Thats it, Mr me in da mirror. Good nite.